this page is about me. this page is about the system. the system we all live upon. i was my guide. i hope maybe i can be yours. about the wonderland of the "human world" and how we are obsessed
with getting what we want, and be reluctant about who we are. about humanity and how it all started.
i was a future wife to the then Prince Naruhito in one of my dreams. i dreamed of becoming a princess, just because at the time, he was looking for a bride to be, and i wondered.
i wondered what they were looking for in a princess, but i also wondered what HE was looking for in a princess. was it feminine quality, or was it a golden heart?
i wondered what a golden heart would be. a lady so well groomed, that she was like a goddess, so kind and generous, but also passionate and strong. a person who was so intelligent, but at the same time so humble, people would cry when they felt her compassion through her words. when she smiles, it's not her face, but more her eyes. the eyes who know pain and sorrow and beauty of other beings.
being able to know what to say, because she can see right through you.
eventually Prince Naruhito decided on Masako, and i remember being very surprised. it looked to me like he chose the most ambitious, intelligent and stubborn woman that was adequate by family, and yet available. during university, i actually heard about a girl whose older sister worked with Masako at the Ministry of Foreign Affairs, and she had said what a bi*** she was. i didn't disagree, she looked the part.
in 2012, Biographer Ben Hills quoted on ABC Australia Network News about Princess Masako and her depression. about how she was a prisoner in a cage, and how unfortunate it was that she could have been an asset for Japan."
"Instead they pummelled and forced her into this mould where she dutifully trots along three steps behind her husband, doesn't speak unless she's spoken to, gives the little smile, gives the little wave, what a terrible waste of talent!" *here*
but it's 2025 now. Empress Masako is no longer the stubborn woman who turned to the press with cold hatred eyes, turned down the Prince because of her egos and dreams. i can still sense her hardships, but she is now so